>_ ★Depakote★.txt on 20220910174258

these new meds are interesting, tho the vanilla taste is weird.. depakote alongside prozac is actively helping me get some of my memories back which is nice! besides the bad memories, especially of snakes (as in people), and ive also been getting rid of some from my life so i can finally move forward!

the chameleon aspect of BPD is still confusing to me, also. i dont even do it consciously, it just happens and i catch myself doing it at a later point.

ALSOOO apparently ur actually allowed to do what ever you want, cant tell if shit friends, religion from childhood, or shit family, or the combo of them caused that complex, but being 23, and just now figuring that out is... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. i rlly hate ppl sometimes. depakote has also helped in this regard, i wonder if this complex is apart of either borderline, or bipolar. hmmmmmm...

oh oh oh and i havent been working on ver 1.4 lately! however it should be up by halloween! (i so gotta make a spooky theme)

>_ ok!.txt on 08.16.2022 @ 12:24am

glow1:wave:XG2 vibezzz

I am satisfied with the backend. Now it's time to work on the frontend, then perhaps the site will reach version 1.4 !!

Coming:

Comments (Debating on whether I should do per post comments or not)
/Projekts/
/Version Browser/
/Experiments/
/Gallery/
Discord Status (Live?)
Steam integration
Post Editor UI/UX rework
Post UI rework

and

Some love for the UI

This isn't simply a blog site <-<

>_ moved from db.txt on 08.14.2022 @ 10:18pm

some quote

ah, i have finally made the blog system non-db dependant, and also it supports markdown!

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bold text italicized text

ahh another bug :D

img elements still showing, even tho there is no src T_T ahhh it will be a simple fix, such as:

 if ($row['article_image'] == NULL){
                echo 'posts without images';
        } else {
      echo 'posts with images';

well, thats how i did it with the DB. maybe, $json['image']; == NULL would work instead. idk, thats something for tomorrow me. i am dog ass tired

>_ memories.txt on 08.12.2022 @ 3:00am

And so it Was

theyre always weird, arent they? for instance this one memory from 2016, listening to this song. i was listening to it in a graveyard, after midnight, just watching the moon and smoking some blunts. every fall i get a hint of that nostalgic memory, i dont know why. could it be because i was alone and had to deal with nothing? no one to force me to do shit? i was genuinely being me? who knows, all I know is that I want to go back to that, peaceful, moment.

also! i have found a bug with this blogging system... i cant input certain characters such as apostrophe into it..... oh well time for md files instead of mysql.

>_ cms.txt on 08.08.2022 @ 2:41pm

Sing Me a Lullaby, My Sweet Temptation

im working on a cms to manage the blog posts, comments (soon), and other aspects of this site!

currently, i log into discord on the dev version of the site, and it shows admin buttons, given im logged into the correct account (works off of my id)

hopefully u cant spoof the user_id with a cookie or something bc that would suuuuuuck.

>_ euphoria.txt on 08.08.2022 @ 1:12am

Close the world, txen eht nepO

that feeling... yknow, the one when you make something, esp with coding, is euphoric and addicting... im in love with the backend i coded for this site. def mixed with pride, as its a huge accomplishment, always, given my usual mental state!

>_ future.txt on 07.28.2022 @ 10:12pm

Who are you? Who slips into my robot body and whispers to my ghost?

i have finally stopped being stuck in my head and got a decent portion of the front page done. heres to the future, and all the projekts and ideas that ive had in mind for years and years, and soon hopefully to be able to make them into a reality. given my mind doesnt give up or gets distracted, that is ^^.
hopefully this blog will also help me with my bpd and help me find real friends that dont copy me

>_ thanks.txt on 09.22.2022 @ 5:34am

thanks to the artists that are playing on this website, they gave me permission to use them here and their music has also helped me alot. id love to get peeps, x, lil tracys, lil happy lil sad, and others on here officially... miss u gus, miss u x, i might make an exception for you two, you both prevented my suicide and saved my life a few times, same with every other artist that plays on this website. much love to you all <3, and if any of you see this, know that your music has an impact and helps people, keep it up

>_ i t l i v e s.txt on 08.02.2021 @ 6:56pm

I finally got a blog made, now u mfs can see the inside of my mind, well maybe.ehhhhh its a bit buggy, ill have to fix it later. im just happy to finally have it wtf, 2008 internet here we come! todo: add ajax buttons with a container for the posts, so u can still listen to music while reading!

welcome to site version 0.5 i guess

requiem.moe

in development

ver 1.3 // alone

restricted: no_user

frendos

add me to ur site:

Coming:

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ahh another bug :D