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#22 more progress! Shirow Masamune 2023-11-16 06:11:00 +0000 UTC

comments now work for blogs (on the dev version!). i've also made a word filter for specific vulgar words :pp. i'm wondering if i should make blog pages/routes, say, requiem.moe/blog/{blogtitle} would output the specific blog post inside this container box where all pages are shown.. that would require a heavy rewrite but i think it would be worth it before i start adding even more features to the blog :v.. test: {{ $postUUID }} {{ $postAuthor }} {{ $postTitle }} ***warning!!!*** i am low-key excited, for in a week i get to see my therapist/psychologist again and hopefully i get back on my meds so i can start to remember things more clearly! yeesh 2023 has been... wild, finally learned to trust my instincts with people so i stop getting hurt and attached to them. and finally got away from the last of the racist/homophobic/utter pos people in my life, and i am so sorry that i was mimicking them through 2015-2022.. a bad aspect of bpd i suppose :/ but then again coming out of 2014/2016 the only 'father' figure I had was a christian, 'aryan brotherhood' type. i am glad i got away from him when i did when i was 16, it only took 7 or so years to completely rid myself of all "friends" that tied me back to when I was 16, and who always held me accountable for everything I did back then no matter if they were worse, or if most of my personality was made for me to survive, I mean yeah I'm sorry and regret it, however you have no right to hold me back from anything. despite my memory issues, i think 2023 has been just me healing from some of my past, and accepting it. i apologize, reader, for again venting through here, however i havent been able to be this raw in a long time, so I hope you forgive me <3. gotta remind myself that those days are behind me, and it is 2023, and i am no longer 14/15 and (->)i will no longer get the shit beat out of me for speaking against the 'norm' :3 (<- i have no active memories of this however it feels right, and feels true. maybe ill reflect on this when I have more of my memories back to better judge it/me!)

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