requiem.moe

#60 Red Quartz diamonds rain across the sky 2025-06-16 20:28:16.109 +0000 UTC

It's been a pretty boring day today. A lot of procrastination for my many projects.. I know I must complete them, but I have no energy for it! I was hoping that quitting caffeine for the most part would 'cure' my anhedonia, but no, it's apart of my MDD. Fucking hell, I will brute force this MDD out of existence! It has plagued me long enough! Also on another sad note, no one talks to me! I mean on a intellectually even level. It's always just redundant or arbitrary small talk, memes, or bs! Give me mental stimulation!!! Sigh... Maybe I just push people away too often, or I really am that far ahead of the curve. Then again the people I hang with 'target' me for my mental health issues and past breakdowns they caused. (Normies in nerd clothing!) God, humans.. Fragile egos flaunting whatever sense of superiority they can grasp. In a weird way it's beginning to give me an ego because I'm not even doing anything wrong, yet people act this way towards me for me being me? Sure, gas me up! I sure need it to combat my MDD! Haha, mental health stuff aside, I hope you're well, reader! Can we have ASI governance yet? Palantir pls... "Vesper" Soon? The great analytical machine awaits me....