trying to retrain my brain to enjoy gaming while having a dopamine deficit due to blunting, is pretty hard. for example, id install an old game, mod it, tweak it so it will work on modern OS's, but id only play it for about 6 minutes.... i got into the start area looked around, and just closed the game. idk why i do this, i do this with games i was addicted to in 2023/early 2024 (Wargame Reddragon), no interest is there even! its affected my passion for coding/tech, aswell! this truly is a mental disease. none-the-less, i have been slowly training myself to enjoy things again besides bed-rotting and blind consumption of media/music by utilizing long-form entertainment such as reading! ive been reading 1-15 pages at a time of SICP, Journeys Out Of the Body, Mastering Go, and Counterculture to Cyberculture! SICP and CtC are so meant for me... I knew I'd resonate with CtC, but SICP too??? Even the foreword gave me a few aha! moments. I hope I'll flow through it and learn Lisp (Scheme) effectively... People tend to say it's hard, even as a CS book. So I guess I'll really see if I'm adept in tech/programming, like I want to believe! (why'd i switch from lowercase, no symbols, to correct spelling/grammar mid post? weird....)
Comments
Please log in to comment.