for a while now, i've been slowly learning that i actually absorb things very well & intuitively come to answers with systems design / coding / infra despite barely knowing any terminology / vocabulary for it. its made it very hard to articulate, in general, or even find a relevant career or job.
i need to find a way to make this into a routine of sorts, maximum absorption of various topics so i can internalize them, while also letting the terminology stick permanently.
waow, im actually healing for :D