tfw i dreamt of Her again a few days ago. that's very odd as in the past it was vague / hazy dreams, but this time it was very vivid and I could actually make out her face / hair / eyes. and ofc its that black hair & that length & that perfect shade of blue in her eyes.
wtf, req is romanticizing a dream!? not really (yes really)... it's just this person was quite literally my first love over a decade ago & she really shaped most of my psyche's direction (unknowingly ofc, thanks bpd). she always will be the epitome of beauty and i still look for her in everyone
oh well. ill just take it as a sign im healing / looking up as in the past my dreams were mostly nightmares riddled by a single entity that repeated in my dreams; stalked & hunted & toyed with me. or i could take it that im going to be in love soon (oh how i pray for her to make a return. i do know she still checks my socials / websites thanks to analytics sooo) :pp
on a side note, its a good sign that i feel warm / butterflies while thinking of her & that dream now. it means im starting to not suppress everything as usual!