I want to add a "memo" feature, something so that I can create short posts without images. I'm too nostalgic listening to collide with the sky to care to make it. This album saved my life so much when i was 13-17, so naturally it brings out nice feelings. I'm unsure on what else to add to the site, I usually just remake the theme every other month in a restless fashion. I would like to stop doing that, but I'm not entirely "solid"?? My mind flows too freely, it's an annoyance in meditations sometimes, but after 8 or so years of meditations it's gotten easier.
I don't even know what else to say. I'm bored, just sitting here in this white trash-esque house worth only $300/mo, overpriced, old, dirty, falling apart. Really living that cyberpunk dream! Perks of not being able to work! My token usage across accounts is also used up so I can't build projects for fucking 3 days. It's a cruelty really. I have found that I binge eat more thanks to this boredom, and I thought I had control of that.
Shows bore me, repeated anime bores me, TV/Movies in general bore me. It feels like I can only get stimulation from Music and browsing Art on deviantart/pinterest/pixiv, and especially coding usually at the same time; My future flow will be Music Visualizer on monitor 3, Terminals on monitor 2, Art on monitor 1. However, I want to get a drawing tablet so I can get back into that, I have a feeling my old talent will come back! I've thought about making music too.
So tired of consuming generic un-stimulating media that I've begun to casually create beautiful worlds in my head, when did that happen? Oh well! Hopefully they will be on paper and in front of a nice comfy audience that is nice! Production >>>>>> Consumption any day
Someone donate me money so I can see a PTV concert for once
JK don't, my anxiety barely handled a movie theatre with 8 people. It is one of the many dreams of mine though. Some day with more healing, I hope.